A has her own blog now

Well, I knew it wouldn't take long and it didn't. A wants to have her own space to write and now she does. She has her own blog that you can link to on the right.
In my last post I commented on some of the decisions we had to make around work and time commitments and the coming year. I don't want there to be any confusion. The teaching, theatre and dance projects are things that I love to do. The extra money is nice too. But I work at my other job 40-50 hours per week on average. When we are busy that jumps to 60-80 hours. I want to remain committed to the few volunteer activities at church because I feel good about doing them and they only require monthly meetings. Now that we are focusing on the adoption process and (hopefully) soon the baby I feel that time is too precious to spend on additional work.
On to the present. Still working through the process while dealing with life. I got the basic design of the birth mother letter done over the weekend. We still have to write the content and pick the photos. It is hard to boil down everything about yourselves to 1 page front and back. It makes sense to keep it simple for the birth mother. But it is hard to know what to include and what to leave out.
The other big item is our profile. The agency that we are working with requires you to fill out a profile of all the potential babies you would be open to. This includes exposure to drugs & alcohol and ethnic background. Both are difficult decisions. No one wants to have their child exposed to drugs or alcohol but the reality is that many of these birth mothers didn't know or denied knowing they were pregnant. Sometimes that ignorance or denial gives them the freedom to continue to use drugs or alcohol. What strikes me as odd about this is that many of the symptoms of drug and alcohol abuse don't show up until after the 1st year. In a closed adoption the adoptive parents wouldn't know the birth parents or the history so they could end up with a child that has been exposed to drugs or alcohol and you might not know for months or years. At least with open adoption you know up front and can make an educated choice. We are not there yet. There is a lot of information on the subject and only so much time to read it all. We are taking in as much as we can and processing it as best we can.
Ethnic background is difficult for different reasons. As much as we would like to say that we can adopt any race and it won't make any difference that is not true. We have to consider our family , neighborhood, and community for the child. And our ability to give the child experience in their natural cultural heritage. I think cultural heritage is probably easier to deal with than acceptance in family and community. We are consulting our friends and family and want to be mindful of how we and the child will be treated. We want the support of our families and friends. But the bottom line is that we have to do what is right for us and what we think is right for our baby. Just because we don't adopt a child of a different ethnic background doesn't mean that child is going to have an easier life. It just means that we might.
As you can see we are struggling with these choices still. I am confident that with prayerful discernment we will make the right choices. We have to keep reminding ourselves that the profile is just opening the possibility. Because we check the box that we are open to a child of a different race or has drug/alcohol exposure doesn't mean that is the situation we will be matched with. It just means that birth mothers of those children will get to see our letters. If they like our letter then we take it from there and see if we match.